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Back on the horse!!!

Posted in Getting started 07 Jan 2020

Hi I have been a member for some time, but fell tragically off the wagon of my quit journey. I've finally managed to jump back on that horse and rejoin the rodeo lol. Day 3 for me, early days I know. I have been struggling to find the courage to have another crack and then one day, when I ran out I thought, really I think I have better things to do with my time and money than smoke, so I chose to not buy more. That was Saturday night. Day 3 and I'm just keeping busy as I'm tired of the exhaustion of feeding that filthy habit. How dumb it is to let something rule you like that!!!! I've been reading stories along the way, and the guts and determination of pple gives me strength to want to be back in the game of this great community 💙

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  • PuffNoMore, Southern NSW January 07, 2020 | 17:50
    Hi Leeann.
    Great to have you back. I'm also reading up before I jump into it again.
  • Leeann , Central Coast January 07, 2020 | 18:21
    Thank you Puffnomore yes it's good to keep reading until you are ready to jump into it again. Day 4 tomorrow for me😊
  • PuffNoMore, Southern NSW January 07, 2020 | 18:59
    Yes, I think some of the old story threads were great! I even noticed you in the class of 2018.
    Keep it going, Everybody feels that the first 3 days are the worst.
    great work.
  • Nuts January 07, 2020 | 22:31
    Hi Leeann. Welcome back. Day 3 well done. You have been here before, so you know what to expect. Learn from the past and be strong. Dont let the smokes be the winner. Tell yourself ' I will not smoke today ' and just get through today. Tomorrow say it again. If you set your goal for one day at a time, it doesnt seem so daunting. Before you know it those one days have turned into months. You seem a lot more positive this time and with the right mindset you will be the winner. 😊👍
  • Happiness January 08, 2020 | 1:39
    Welcome back Leanne. Wonderful to see you have regrouped and ready to embrace your life as a non-smoker again.
    The adjustment to accepting this journey is already under your belt for the most part. You may have slipped and even fallen for a time but you have found that "desire" and are striving to reach that status again. Is there any phrase or sentiment that triggered that desire to quit smoking ? Did you understand why you slipped and how to prevent it again? Not only do you know you best to succeed but these answers are sometimes beneficial to others as well.

    Congratulations on Day 3! The worst is almost behind and a brighter and better future is ahead waiting for you. Embrace the journey, learn and stay free! Great having you back!!!
  • Leeann , Central Coast January 08, 2020 | 6:37
    Thank you Nuts you are so right I'm actually trying hard to just distract myself, which is working really well. I'm back at work and flat out, so the days fly, then I come home, do a couple of chores, go to the gym, dinner, tv, sleep, repeat lol. I'm determined to beat this once and for all and choose the freedom from slavery😊
  • Leeann , Central Coast January 08, 2020 | 6:45
    Thank you Happiness for your kind words, as for a phrase or sentiment, how about I'm tired of feeding the beast!! Because it's damn costly and time consuming keeping up with feeding that nicodemon beast!! Also I was wanting to quit and bcos I knew I wanted to quit, my subconscious was feeling like it was going to be deprived so I would smoke more and more. Like I said I ran out of smokes and just thought really, how long are we going to do this stupid dance of feeding this addiction so I knew then no more, time to stop. In regards to how I slipped, it was after drinking, but hey I was 11 months in, so I don't blame the drinking, I blame myself for feeling that I was deprived from something or missing out. The old lure back in is far worst than standing strong and choosing no more.
  • softly40, Mid North Coast January 08, 2020 | 8:31
    I remember you Leeann, glad you took up the decision to stop smoking once, again, I tried several times, the key for me was not trying to do it on my own (stay close to the forum) not knowing the harmful effects to your body (keep on reading and researching) the mind over matter, (getting your mind in the positive frame and importantly for me one that sticks there). NOPE Not one puff Ever. How to be a happy Non Smoker by NASIA DAVOS from TEDxUniversityofPiraeus - u-tube.
  • Pisces24, Central Coast January 08, 2020 | 9:05
    Welcome Leeann...
    I am just over a month quit but the big difference for me really is The Allen Carr book. I bought a hard copy rather than reading it online.
    If you feel yourself thinking of cigarettes again, refresh your mindset and get back on track. I guess I cant understand why you would recommence smoking after 11 months!!!
    Not judging you at all but Im a bit scared of hearing that.
    After 1 month I wouldn't want to go back to being enslaved by nicotine ever again. Are we really like an alcoholic???? Do we have to be afraid forever????
    I feel so confident now but it is scary to feel the Nicotine Monster will be breathing down my neck forever...
    Anyway, go girl! Youre in the right place to get back on the horse. I cant believe on 1 month it is $550 saved from smoking. Youll notice the extra $$.
    My son quit too and he is surprised how much money he has in his pocket.
    The mantra N.O.P.E. should resonate with us all. I think if I did smoke Id be sick and dizzy so I wont go there!


  • Leeann , Central Coast January 08, 2020 | 12:25
    Thank you both softly40 and pisces24. You know I might just go and buy the Allen Carr book, as I've never read it. I would like the hard copy as appossed to reading online. I will make that my mission to do. So far I'm not struggling, I find when I get up in the morning and home from work my trigger points where I think of it, but not for long, I just redirect my brain and focus on something constructive to do👍
  • Safe2017 January 08, 2020 | 12:59
    Welcome back Leann, you’ve done it once for 10 months or so, if I am not mistaken, and you can do it again. Good luck and all the best.
  • Pisces24, Central Coast January 08, 2020 | 13:33
    Thete is always REMINDERS of when we smoked in certain situations places and times...dont confuse this with a "craving"...its a memory and you have to expect that but just shrug them off.

    It fades but as it fades you get stronger and more focused and confident. Doesn't take long.
    Stay with us and learn and grow..
  • Pisces24, Central Coast January 08, 2020 | 13:34
    You'll be reminded when you ou see the $$$ saved🤑
  • Leeann , Central Coast January 08, 2020 | 19:33
    Thank you Safe2017, I've been reading your milestones. Awesome work mate👏😊
  • Pisces24, Central Coast January 08, 2020 | 20:46
    I got my copy from QV Books $24.95. You can get it online too Leeann...
    Good move👍
  • Leeann , Central Coast January 08, 2020 | 21:49
    Thank you so much Pisces24 I just ordered it online, $18.14, gr8 investment I am sure. Looking forward to reading it😊👍
  • PuffNoMore, Southern NSW January 08, 2020 | 22:00
    Hello again leanne
    Can I have the online address for that, I'll buy one hundred of them.
  • PuffNoMore, Southern NSW January 08, 2020 | 22:03
    I might buy a few at that price


  • PuffNoMore, Southern NSW January 08, 2020 | 23:05
    Dont need the address .I found one online bookshop and I have paid for two books to be delivered.
    They are $24.99 each plus delivery.
    Here is the details if any one is interested?
    Head Office (07) 3291 740)
    Online Store (07) 3291 #444
    (07) 329! 7477
    30 Enterprise Street, Richlands, QLD 4077,
  • PuffNoMore, Southern NSW January 08, 2020 | 23:18
    I had to change one thing in phone numbers and email address to get this thru

    I must say that I was surprised that a new member got thru here using an email address as their name?? Or what looks like an email address???????? perplexed?
  • PuffNoMore, Southern NSW January 08, 2020 | 23:24

    Has anybody got a logical explanation ??? for a email address for a icon name????
  • Leeann , Central Coast January 09, 2020 | 6:43
    I ordered it through world of books online. I wont try to enter their web address, anyone can google them
  • Robn January 09, 2020 | 8:39
    Hi Leeann, I can’t tell you how thrilled I am that you are back. You will do this, you are strong and determined and you already know how fantastic it is to be free.
    The Allan Carr book is excellent and I am sure you will get a lot out of it. Sending much love and encouragement to a very smart lady, have missed you on here.
    Go girl and smile, smile, are taking back control xx
  • Pisces24, Central Coast January 09, 2020 | 9:53
    Great work Leeann getting your book so cheaply..🤑
    If ever you are edgy or romanticising about JUST ONE get your book out and get back on track.
    It will reaffirm your path ahead and give you syrength💪💪💪💪💪💪
  • Leeann , Central Coast January 09, 2020 | 9:56
    Aww thanks Robn and Pisces, you guys rock so much. The support on this site is amazing, I have a very clear path on where I want to be and know exactly how to do it in order to succeed. This site and the book, once I receive it will just assist me in keeping my eyes firmly on the target!!!!😊💙
  • Pisces24, Central Coast January 09, 2020 | 12:46
    You've got that DEMON by the horns Leanne👿
    Keep positive and strong and you won't believe how good it is on the other side....🙋‍♀️🐟
  • Happiness January 09, 2020 | 16:19
    I am sure Leanne remembers just how awesome it is on this side of the fence. She let temptation win and has regretted being fooled again by nicotine. We learn through our mistakes and Leanne has been quite the cheerleader for others while on the journey herself. I am surprised that some have not read the Allen Carr book because as much as we try to relay the information, no one tells it like Allen Carr. Of course many are afraid to read it because they might want to quit. How irrational is that? That my friends is how nicotine came to control us, taking away all belief in ourselves , our self respect, and apparently even common sense when i t comes to smoking. A drug so insidious that it could turn us to take poison and make us believe that we enjoyed doing so.

    What is left to romanticize about smoking? Nothing. But it will always hold that power until you accept the truth . When we understand what it did to us, add up the thousands of dollars, the decline in health and how silly we looked to non-smokers. And the stink! filth, grime....

    A non-smoker will never understand us . We hardly understand us. We are victims of nicotine. We did not choose to become addicted. We need to forgive ourselves, take the knowledge we now have and turn our minds again nicotine. Retraining the mind can be easy, just accept the truth.
  • Pisces24, Central Coast January 10, 2020 | 8:21
  • Leeann , Central Coast January 10, 2020 | 15:52
    Does this mean you've slipped Pisces24? If you have it's ok, put them down and stop now, pick yourself up square those shoulders and continue on the path of freedom. You have not gone a whole month for nothing, you are stronger than that, you've shown us that already that you c a n do it. Trust me when I tell you, those smokes will give you nothing, only rob you of your $$, health, time, self worth and leave you s smelling like an ash tray. Please think long and hard which path you choose next, I hope you choose to shrug off the slip🤞💙😊
  • Nuts January 10, 2020 | 16:01
    I dont think that Pisces has slipped Leeann. I think her post means that she would cry if she smoked again. At least i hope thats what it means. You are going great Leeanne 👍
  • Pisces24, Central Coast January 11, 2020 | 7:59
    NOPE... haven't slipped..
    Not one little bit.
    I'm so sad for 47 years lost to Nicotine and filthy cigarettes.
    I wouldn't let myself down.
    Wouldn't go back to that sad place ever again. Done enough damage to myself.
  • Nuts January 11, 2020 | 13:17
    Didn't think you had slipped Pisces. You are too much of a happy quitter to ever go back. So proud of you. Must be amost a week for you Leeann. Yay for you. 💕🤗 proud of you too 🤗💕

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