Keep fighting

May 9 will be 2 years.

I went from counting minutes to hours, days, months…. Wow year(s). It has not been easy. From time to time I still get strong urges and struggle through them. More so when I am under lots of stress. Not as long as in the beginning but occasionally have to go back to original thoughts, NOPE, breath, etc. I remind myself that people all over the world go through the same stresses, challenges and don’t light up a cig. There is no reason to smoke!!

When I quit years ago in my 30’s it wasn’t as hard. I was active, raising children, busy all the time. I had quit 5 years. Thought I was no longer addicted or didn’t have the bad “habit” and all it took was a few puffs one night out with friends. Continued to smoke the next 20 years! Now I know I can NOT ever smoke again. I think that is part of the reason it is harder this last time. When I think about cheating I remember how hard it was to quit! I do not want to go through that ever again. 675 days smoke free.