Relapse
So today I’m on day 6 of my new quit. I had quit for 8 years. Talked myself into thinking that I was one of those people who can be a social smoker. What a dummy I am. About a year ago went on vacation with a couple that are both smokers.
. We were drinking and having fun and I thought I’ll smoke this week and I’ll stop when I get home. And I did. But it was now in the back of my mind. So whenever I was out drinking I would seek out smokers and ask for a smoke. Still I thought I had it under control. We went on vacation again 8 months later and I did the same thing smoked all week. My wife kept telling me that I was going down a slippery road. But I insisted that I had it under control. I started craving it more and more. Well in a years time I started buying a pack her and there. Would smoke 5-6 and throw the pack out. I hatted myself. Then thanksgiving night I drank and when everyone left I started going threw the garbage can to find a cig. Then I knew I lost control.
Thanks for sharing your story and I hope that people remember that we are addicts to nicotine and always will be. Just one cigarette can wakes the sensors that we closed off but lie dormant....not dead. ......We need to forever vigilant and remember NOPE. Not One Puff Ever!!!
I am glad that you are back to quit again . It sounds like you enjoyed life as a non-smoker but just mistakenly thought that you could get away with a little cheat. Well, now you know that you can't and I am sure that you will not ever tempt fate again in the future.
You have the desire to quit and the support to do so
People tend to confuse past good times with smoking. Smoking had nothing to do with the good experience, it may have just been an easier way to meet people years ago but not so much anymore.
Anyways, the mistake is done and you are taking great steps to remedy it. I hope our stories and support help to keep you feeling a little accountable, but without pressure. We wish you success and know that you can quit smoking. You already did it and so half the battle is already won. As an old member once wrote "The Battle is Won in the Mind".
Think Positive and Be Proud to be a Non-Smoker!
I know exactly what you mean. The exact same thing happened to me, not once but twice. It's been 6.5 years since my last smoke and I've learned NOPE concept. Good luck. You can do it again.