Crisis Averted

Hi,

I feel I've dodged a bullet. Last night I really wanted to buy cigarettes. I dreamt that someone gave me a packet. Then in the morning I was ready to go buy some. I got dressed ready to go to the tobacconist.

Then I thought that would be failing and I don't want to fail. I don't want to go back to buying them every few days. I don't want to be an addict any more.

So I got on my bicycle and rode to the ocean baths and swam some laps. Noticing how I can swim much further than I used to without getting short of breath. I swam till my arms hurt and I never ran out of breath. I congratulated myself for avoiding a moment of weakness and concentrated on how free I am without the demon of addiction.

I feel much better and happy I got through that one. I'm sure there will be many more to come. One at a time. Each day at a time.

12 days in.