Day 1: Honouring and centering 'me' in my journey...
I have been circling around the need to stop smoking for ten years. My beautiful, beautiful mother died of smoking-related COPD ten years ago. Before she died, she asked me to promise that I would stop - she didn't want me to experience what she was living, and the agony, pain and contraction of smoking and its impact. Although she always took a very pragmatic view - 'I called the tune; now its time to pay the piper' and actually under-represented what she was experiencing. She didn't want this for me - I didn't want this for her. To my shame, I did not promise her, because I knew that I would not deliver. I wasn't ready despite it all. A decade on, and still I have been puffing up. Circling...circling...knowing...knowing...It is now time - to honour my mum's honouring of me - making myself visible and valuable behind the miasma of smoke and poor self-esteem. Or every cigarette butt a band-aid. It. Stops. Now.
Hi geeBree'L,
Thank you for your message, i found it really encouraging.
I can relate to your post and how you have wanted to stop smoking for many years.
With many attempts to stop and keep coming back to it at least has provided some education along the way and show the desire to stop.
Today is day 14 of not smoking.
I know that i see myself as a non smoker and have decided to do that.
Disiplined exercise and Reading The Easy Way by Alan Carr has been great.
Alcohol for me is also enemy number one to avoid too.
lets be forever non smokers !
We made excuses for years, as we were not blind to the perils. We feared that we were too weak to quit, or maybe just didn't feel the need as strongly back when.
When we finally feel the time is right and we can believe that we will have success, we do. This is a great place to find more incentive and a lot of support, just knowing that you are not alone. We have been there and you can be Here.
Be a winner. You can do it!