This Time
Trying, over and over, to quit has been a roller coaster ride. On May 7, 2018 at 9:00 am PST I had my last cigarette. Its now the 24th of May. I have not gone this long without a cigarette since I don't know when.
I'm starting to recognize my attitude after 2 weeks, I find myself convincing myself that "one" cigarette won't hurt. It seems harder today than a few days ago. It worries me because I, truly, do not ever want to smoke again.
Hi Ester, from personal experience I can tell you that I convinced myself twice before that on cig won’t hurt me at all. Once after one year of no smoking and the second time after 2 years. The first puff was awful and so was the second and the third and before I knew it the whole cig was finished and then a whole pack and I was right back where I started. That’s hooked again. It’ll get easier and easier to handle the longer you stay off. Good luck
I never thought of, "Thinking like a smoker". I need to let that sink in. I've tried quitting before and only lasted a few days. This is very encouraging, but hard. I want it so bad. My goal is to better myself should and body and cigarettes are in the way.
Hi Ester.
I think the above comments are great and possibly this won't add anything to them, but you might also want to ask yourself what benefit "one cigarette" is going to add to your life?
I think we know it's your addict/nicotine cravings/however you are identifying it that want that smoke, but it's unlikely you would stop at just one.
EJC, all comments are helping. It's funny how my mind us trying to convince me that one cigarette won't hurt or me asking myself, "Do I want to quit? or Why do I want to quit?, and be miserable like I am right now."
I'm actually smiling right now because I'm writing what I'm thinking and those questions, really, do sound silly now. :).
Believe it or not, this site and these comments are helping, even for the moment. I have to take thus journey a moment at a time. It's, probably, the only way I could do it.
I thank you and the others very much.
Robin,
You are, absolutely, right. I came to the point, where buying them was an awful feeling. At over $9.00 per pack it also hurt the pocket.
My cigarettes cost me over $40 a pack of 40. You could try tossing a dollar into a jar every time you feel like a smoke. Just watch that grow. At present I'm about $600 in front and healthier for it!