Hi fellow smoking quitters. I am 50 and started when I was 12 so that was a very long time ago. I have tried to quit so many times that I now can't remember how many attempts I am up to. The longest period I quit for was for 4 months and it was over 5 and half years ago. I have also spent the last 5 and half years as a secret smoker.
Most of the people I know where I live do not know I smoke so only place I do it is in my backyard. I was going away for the weekend starting 31 October with all the girls I work with and knew I could not smoke (in fitness industry so sneaking away for one was not an option) so I decided this was a great opportunity to give up and I have. I have done it by going cold turkey but did buy lozenges in case (I have used only 2 but did not like them so decided no nicotine hit was worth how they made me feel. Funnily enough I did not use either of those 2 on that weekend). As I only smoke at home, I probably smoke about 12 a day (I used to smoke a packet a day before it was banned from just about everywhere so you could say the buzz killers did me a favour though I did not think so at the time).
I am reasonably fit so lack of breath has never been a problem but I did have a cough at night which I have noticed is easing. I am suffering from headaches and sleep is iratic. I think about smoking a lot and have been visiting this site and reading your stories which have been helping so I thought I should post something too. I have also been eating a lot if cheese and nuts. Unfortunately for me I was never able to smoke without something to drink - be it coffee, water or alcohol so all fluids are a trigger for me. I really am determined this time that I will beat it as l am sick of setting my money on fire, hair and clothes stinking and hiding my antisocial habit.
My greatest fear is emphysema (it should be cancer but it is not) and fearing one day that in the future my smoking habit will come home to roost like it did for Allen Carr but that is a very negative thing for me to be thinking and I need to be positive in myself that to give up now I am giving myself a better chance for the future.
This journey is hard but the benefits will be worth it. Thank you for everyone who does take the time to post because I know you have helped me. When I crave a smoke I just come on the site and read some of the posts and it takes my mind off it. Wish you all a smoke free day and here is to a future of being a non smoker.
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