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Flowers66
South Eastern Sydney
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17/02/2020
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Posted in Getting started 22 Oct 2020
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Hi,

I am a 54 year old woman who has smoked for 36 years.

I have attempted quitting around 10 times over the past 20 years,managing to last 18months the last time I tried ( around 7 years ago) I notice how bad my skin looks,how much phlegm I have every morning and how much my apartment smells. So,armed with patches and determined to successfully wipe this addiction from my system,I am here.

Reading over the stories I am inspired and motivated.

I have been smoke free for 3 days now and have been ,let's say, very wobbly at times. Today the urge to light up got me to the point where I had found a butt somewhere gross, retrieved a lighter and it was in my hand .Ready to go.

I said out loud " what are you doing you nong,put that down and do some work" And I did.

Last night on a long phonecall with my mum I picked a fight with her, then just cried like a baby to her.

So yeah,

really hoping this passes soon so I can feel a bit more steady within myself.

So glad this resource exists,I have setup a savings box,I will put the cash I save weekly in there.And I will have this site open all the time on my computer and phone so I can lean right in!!!

Thanks for being here.

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  • New chapter October 22, 2020 | 16:19
    Hi Flowers 66 congratulations of your 3 days quitting,you are doing really well,take one day at a time and in your weak moments familiarise with pure mantra we have on this site..NOPE,......NOT ONE PUFF EVER,go to the home page of our site and read all of the sections the site has to offer you,it will help you understand more the quitting process you are going through and ways to help you cope with your quit,have a great smoke free day and stay strong
    Reguards
    Steve
  • Dicknose, South Eastern Sydney October 22, 2020 | 21:44
    Hi Flowers66 I am a little bit older Oder than you and I am at 24 days. I am on champix It does help. Mind set is a big thing too. You can do it. Use the NOPE mantra I helps me.
  • Happiness October 23, 2020 | 1:20
    Hi there. It is nice of you to make your presence known Flowers66 and we hope to hear more from you in the future.
    Past quits have been just learning sessions up to the real thing and I think this one will be the last one for you. I am glad to hear that you have been reading and learning here and I hope you have gained the positive attitude which makes success more likely. We can quit smoking when we understand that it gave us nothing but grief. We can gain the control back over it. Good on you for coming so close to letting yourself down and instead deciding it was good time to starve the beast. It has controlled us long enough.

    Freedom is what we seek. Not quitting smoking but deciding we want more.
    Many people don't stop at just quitting smoking. They go on with the confidence to lose weight, exercise and generally make better choices . Being a non smoker is great!
  • Safe2017 October 23, 2020 | 6:42
    Stay strong and determined Flowers66. When you get an urge to smoke try sunflowers instead. They greatly reduce the urge to smoke and they keep your hands busy, that is mimicking hand to mouth motion all new quitters miss so much. Lastly, practice NOPE - not one puff ever, and you'll be on your way to freedom from addiction before you know it. Cheers and good luck.
  • ehw October 24, 2020 | 2:47
    good luck... dont give in... it will get easier
  • Lia October 24, 2020 | 18:11
    Hi Flowers 66. Ditto to all the comments above. Your comment about your smelly apartment reminds me of when I had a convertible. Mostly the roof was up and the ash tray was open. The inside was covered in years of stinky brown smoke. I used to refer to my cr as an ashtray on wheels. An apt description. Your living space must not resemble an ash tray. Good luck. Do post again.

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