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Posted in Quit experiences 23 Sep 2020

Hi everyone an update on my quitting experience.

I smoked my last cigarette on Aug 2,which means I’m nearly 2 months nicotine free,I’ve been through several emotions through the 2 months,from feelin proud and euforic when I first stopped,then I had a phase where I was moody and depressed,I took a good look at my self and shook the depressed feeling off,telling myself that it was just my addiction trying to get me to smoke again and to not let it beat me,I made myself go running again which I’m still doing and enjoying,and I’ve took up cooking as a hobby too,a hobby which you would think be dangerous with just stopping but it’s fun and I’m enjoying it,I’ve put a couple of pound in weight on since I’ve stopped,but I’m not fat and I feel better for it,on the negative side tho I feel like this week My minds been subconsciously thinking about cigarettes more than in anytime since I stopped,don’t get me wrong I’m not tempted to smoke because I’ll never smoke again,but I’m feeling a bit like You would when your mourning a loved one,there is an unavoidable void in my life which I’m trying my hardest to fill the gap,I’m filling it and I’m winning the battle,but I must say it’s the hardest battle I’ve ever encountered and am still encountering in my life,is it normal to feel this way or am I just being a wimp?

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  • weewillem September 23, 2020 | 5:39
    I think that empty feeling is the withdrawal symptom. I used to be so busy when I was a smoker, what do I do now?
  • New chapter September 23, 2020 | 6:19
    Thanks for the reply weewillem,I am always busy with work and life and hobby’s,but it’s so frustrating that I keep thinking about poxy cigarettes,as specially when I’ll never smoke again,I’ve gone from liking them to hating the smell of them,how long have you been nicotine free?
  • softly40, Mid North Coast September 23, 2020 | 6:52
    Congratulations on 2 months free from nicotine, you are doing really well. I kept thinking and dreaming about a cigarette for about 3 months, I also had to watch I did not succumb to these thoughts or dreams.

    You need to now alter your mindset about the loss and gains of non smoking, putting the gains in top place, your feelings need to correspond with this too, eg: I am so happy to have stopped because....... Further help you can give yourself is to think of one happy thing during your day every night before falling asleep, this will give you a deeper experience of happiness than you have at the moment.

    The second thing you need to do now, is to develop a Mantra for yourself every day such as NOPE (not one puff ever) or something similar so that the maintenance is fully ingrained into your mind. Staying close to this forum will
    also help.
  • Happiness September 23, 2020 | 6:52
    I am sure everyone has that adjustment to make and you are handling it very well. I did not have cravings after the first 72 hours cold turkey, but it seems I am an exception. I have thought of smoking and have dreamed of it, but have no desire to. The right mindset works wonders....
    Keep on doing whatever keeps you happy and busy. Smoking was just a waste of time, money and health.
  • New chapter September 23, 2020 | 8:13
    Thankyou for your comments Softly and happiness.
    Softly I am so focused on never smoking again,I truly do understand the being it’s of stopping smoking,it’s a no brained,I will never smoke again,but it’s just a phase I’m going through where I think about them more at the minute than I have since I stopped,not thinking about them like wanting one but just having a picture of one pop up in my head Whitch
    is a bit weird As I don’t even want one,I guess it must be a passing phase lol
    ...Happiness like you I have no desire what so ever to smoke again,the improvements in so many things in just two months is amazing.stronger deeper breathing taste smell,skin and I could go on,I do think the right mind set is vital,and I believe that you really must want to quit for the right reasons to achieve it,I’m so happy I’ve stopped and most important
    Stopped forever.
    Thank you both for your support it means a lot😊x
  • Safe2017 September 23, 2020 | 9:36
    The longer you don’t smoke the more normal you’ll feel without a cig. Unlike smokers non smokers feel normal without nicotine. Every ex smoker, including myself, went through withdrawals. Don’t be a smoker who chooses not to smoke. Practice NOPE - not one puff ever. Stay strong and smoking will be a memory. Cheers
  • jessfreeof, Northern NSW September 23, 2020 | 15:32
    Hi new chapter so lovely to hear from you. You sound like you are doing really well. Keep going you are definitely not being a wimp you are being so strong. It is a major battle for me at times and I too feel like I am missing something. As you know i have had a few slips recently I fell for the old just one trick. I am back on track today I am never going to give up on remaining a non smoker. I love how you took up a new hobby (cooking) I think I might spend some time cooking over the next couple of days to keep myself occupied and give myself some yummy food. Thanks for sharing on how your travelling with it all I find it very encouraging. Enjoy your afternoon xo

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