It is day 36 and I feel like having a smoke, a cigarette. It is really full on! But, I'm not going to. I have come too far to go back, because all that would happen is I would take a few drags, feel a bit dizzy and think how wonderful that is and then realise what have I done??!! So I am going to save myself that old familiar anguish and say "No" to my self. Otherwise I'll be hooked right back into it and wishing I had those 36 days back! Oh yes I would. This may be stubborn but I can get through this. And the best way to deal with the addiction is to Tell on it. Dob it in. I am going to work on my budget now and figure out how much money I will save each and every week. It is heaps, minimum $210 per week (No holidays) slave labour to the god of nicotine. No thank you! I could keep going but I'll spare you the repeats. Thank you for being there dear reader. You are the reason I stay clean from this drug. Oh yes, it is a drug, it may be legal but it is a drug nonetheless. And, it pays me for not taking it. So take that! Thanks for listening, I hope this doesn't happen to you, but it seems we all have to go through these rough spots. There, I feel much better now, happy reading.
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