Hmm, how do I start this.
I suppose just writing down how I’m feeling right now. Hopefully it’s therapeutic.
I’m 3 days in, with a slip up at work yesterday (day 2) when a co-worker offered me 1 at the end of the day. I snatched it without a second thought, and as I lit it I told him, I was trying to quit, and he ruined it. Fact is I sabotaged myself in not letting friends and co-workers know.
My first problem was thinking it wasn’t a big deal in me trying to quit. I’ve tried and failed before, many times, so why tell people?
Poor thinking on my part. The more people that know, the more people you will have encouraging you.
This morning I had others in the office ribbing me a little about quitting, guess the word spread quickly, but still got a few “good on you for trying”.
Chatted with another work colleague today too, hadn’t really seen him for a couple weeks as he was either busy at his desk or out on site. He tells me he quit just before Xmas and was avoiding me as he didn’t want to be tempted. Kind of hurt, but made complete sense; as the last 3 days I’d had lunch in my car instead of the office balcony, where the rest of the smokers were.
Anyway, hope my story helps others in some way, and hopefully I can stay quit, for one more day . . . and then another.