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2 weeks tiday

Posted in Quit experiences 01 Sep 2019

Today marks 14 days since I actively chose to harm myself and those around me with a cigarette. I feel proud, free, and empowered. I look back and I can't believe how much energy I used to waste on smoking, things like staying up that bit later at night to have that last smoke before bed, or walking all the way back to the car to sneak that smoke before heading back into that event/function/shopping centre etc.

I have noticed the last 2-3 days I have been quite anxious but I was warned that, that symptom may rear it's ugly head. I do suffer with anxiety attacks but I haven't found my anxiety to be unbearable or uncontrollable and I'm hopeful it will stay that way.

I think the anxiety is a good thing- the way I see it is smoking is like a controlling ex partner. When you first leave they try to get you back with empty promises of being better (withdrawals) when you refuse they get angry and make threats( bad cravings) when you still refuse they beg for forgiveness ( anxiety), then they send a daily text about how they miss you (facing temptation), and lastly the occasional drunken text, but eventually they give up.

So with that theory/analogy in mind the smokes have realised they have lost control over me and are a making a few desperate attempts to get me back before they begin to move on, and with enough distance between myself and smokes I am strong enough to see them for what they really are.

I look forward to week 3 and I embrace any challenges that await me.

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  • Robn September 01, 2019 | 21:10
    Well done Kirk....that is the exact mindset that will set you free. Bring it are strong enough and brave enough to defeat whatever it is that is put in your get the result you want. That applies to anything in life, the only thing that holds us back is our own fear of the what if’s.....sometimes we also get scared about what if we succeed. You are awesome and don’t you ever forget it. Feel proud have earnt it.
  • Happiness September 01, 2019 | 23:36
    Way to go SuperMom. Setting great examples for the kids and teaching them that they can do anything that they set their minds to is something to be so proud of.
    I like your anaology of breaking up with the cigarette, and it reflects exactly the love/hate relationship we have with smoking. Going for the divorce and not just a separation is more defined. Congrats on being smoke free and with now just one thing to remember. NOPE! I am so proud of you. Treat yourself well, you deserve it.
  • FreshAirOK, Hunter New England September 02, 2019 | 6:31
    Hi and congratulations on two weeks smoke free. I really liked how you compared smoking to an abusive partner it is spot on. Keep your insights coming and reward yourself even if it is a self congratulatory pat on the back you are doing so well keep it up.
  • Safe2017 September 02, 2019 | 7:35
    The best thing you can do for yourself is practice NOPE - not one puff ever. Good going to you. The first two weeks are the hardest. Cheers.
  • softly40, Mid North Coast September 02, 2019 | 8:53
    Everyone is on your side now Kirk88. You bring joy to us all, I found myself smiling at your analogy, congratulations on 2 weeks you have done it. You deserve rewards and handclaps from yourself and everyone else.
  • Nuts September 03, 2019 | 13:28
    Hi Kirk88. You are going really well. Stay strong mate. You have got this. 👍

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