Today marks 1 week smoke free. Day 2 was almost unbearable and day 5 wasn't much better.
I don't seem to struggle through the day much but come afternoon when I'm doing homework/dinner time rush and all my mum stuff I find it really hard. I miss having an excuse and a reminder to take 5 mins to myself to stop my temper from exploding. I get frustrated with a lack of coping mechanisms for those of us that just can't get away.
Today my mind feels foggy and I can't concentrate but I have noticed that my wheeze is almost completely gone and I don't have to draw a massive breath halfway through singing nursery rhymes with my toddler.
Financially I can't afford a typical celebration of rewarding myself with a material possession but I will be taking my kids to the park today for a picnic and I will take great joy in knowing that when I say it's time to leave it will be because it is actually time to leave and not just me saying that because I want a smoke. Right now the thing that stops me from caving in to my addiction is knowing the hardest part is over and not wanting to ever have to put my kids through that first week of grumpy mummy ever again.
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