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Day 38

Posted in Quit experiences 04 Feb 2019

I’ve made Day 38; it was too distant to even see on Day 1 but it’s here despite the Day 31 drama. On Day 31 I’d determined that I was smoke free and was going to be so for the rest of my life. I most definitely wasn’t nicotine free though; I’d used NRT (lozenges) to get me smoke free and was still feeding my nicotine addiction with them.

The suggestions I got from this forum ranged from being reminded that the lozenges are a 12-week program so maybe I should just stick with the program, right through to just throwing the lozenges away that day and going cold turkey. I don’t believe I could have become smoke free without those lozenges but they were really harsh on my tongue, mouth, throat, and even stomach – and that’s why I chose immediate cold turkey.

I had not imagined just how badly my body would react to being denied nicotine after 35 years of getting it regularly. A nagging headache crept up. Muscles, and/or bones I didn’t even know I had started to ache. There were pains in my chest, stomach, sides and back. I went from simply dripping sweat to shaking and feeling cold in minutes. On the first night I went to bed at 8pm with a mild sedative to try and sleep through some of it; that resulted in me tossing and turning until about 3.30am the next morning and finally dropping off for an hour or so. There was more, and overall it was cruel. If I’d ever been asked to describe what it might feel like to go cold turkey off a serious drug like heroin, it would have been something close to what I did experience with nicotine.

Despite the physical issues, and the small bouts of depression and anxiety, I was simply too far down the track to fall off the rails. I fought those withdrawal symptoms in every way I could and although they certainly haven’t disappeared, they are easing off significantly. I’m thinking of making Day 50 the next milestone.

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  • Robn February 04, 2019 | 12:29
    Well done to you Grimbling, you are doing an amazing job kicking that horrible habit out of your life. The worst is over, and you made it any little cravings that come along you can handle easily. We never realised what a hold that smoking had over us and what horrible things it was doing to our bodies and minds. You are well on the way to freedom...take one day at a time and stay strong and focused. You got this.
  • Happiness February 04, 2019 | 14:54
    Well you have made it out the other side Grimbling, and too far to turn back now, so forward and onward to day 50 for you. I am sorry to hear how you had such a rough time of it. Sure sounded like a dandy flu. Sometimes coincidences happen. I hope you are feeling much better now.
    Symptoms that people relate to cravings, can also be diminished by cutting your caffeine by half when you ditch the nicotine, drinking lots of water, and eating breakfast.
    Great job Grimbling, stay strong , determined and Positive!
  • PuffNoMore, Southern NSW February 04, 2019 | 17:00
    Stick to your guns or whatever gets you through the withdrawl process. You've come so far now to go back!.
    You may have come through the worst of it by now.
    Stick with it Grimbling
  • marytoya February 04, 2019 | 17:35
    I smoked for a long time, and then at one moment I came to the fact that not only did it stink badly of men, it also makes good money. Therefore, my husband and I just started to quit smoking. For today we haven't smoked for 4 years already and we advise everyone. They did without patches and cakes, just occupied their thoughts and time with some chores in order not to smoke. And this is awesome!
  • Shamrock February 05, 2019 | 9:59
    Think I am about to do the same - ditch the patch and go cold turkey. Thanks for posting what turkey was actually like for you
  • Shamrock February 05, 2019 | 9:59
    Think I am about to do the same - ditch the patch and go cold turkey. Thanks for posting what turkey was actually like for you

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