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Kennie
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22/04/2018
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7 Days Free

Posted in Staying quit 25 Nov 2018
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Wow I hit the one week marker.

Days 5 and 6 were emotional. As one would expect; the emotional rollercoaster had me frustrated at people, crying over the most trifling things. It’s been a mess. But I’m grateful I got through them.

Totally fitting to get into this non-smoker mindset. I keep telling myself “I choose not to smoke”, “I am not a smoker now” and yes it is all fine and I do not have massive cravings.

But you see, I’m a loner. My friends at work are smokers. Whenever I see my smoker friends, I keep away from them, feigning to be super busy with work. I’ve quit smoking twice already and if I say “I quit smoking” again, they’ll laugh/ snicker and I feel like I will feel worse.

In other news, my anxiety is at an all-time high. I only have 2 cups of coffee each day, I do not know why I feel on edge most of the time.

I feel like crap most times. At the end of the day, I immerse myself in social media, keep up to date with family members etc.

I really want this and I will do this. I am tired though.

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  • Leeann , Central Coast November 25, 2018 | 18:32
    Hang in there Kennie, you got past the first week which can be super tough after a relapse. It will get easier I promise so just stay strong. I too used to feel on edge at first and my anxiety too was at an all time high, this is normal. It all passes. As Robn says which is so true - nothing worth fighting for comes easy. So you hang in there girl you've got this!! Stay strong and just keep busy, every week gets easier and easier bit by bit. You just did 7 days so you can do 7 more.........😊
  • Safe2017 November 26, 2018 | 1:29
    Hang in there Kennie and you’ll make it. It doesn’t sound like your so called friends are your friends at all. I’d rather be alone than with someone who drags me down. Don’t pay attention to them because when you get your freedom back from nicotine addiction they still be killing themselves slowly. Stay strong.
  • Happiness November 26, 2018 | 6:13
    You can do this Kenny.

    I am glad you have been reading about the mindset and feel it does help. I quit before reading Allan Carr's Book Easyway to Quit Smoking (cold turkey/mindset) but he is so right. Hubby just finished reading it and quit. He gets little fleeting thoughts as he refers to as the little monster dying. This is his Day 1. I have no doubt he will succeed because he saw me do it so very easily. Believe and you can too.

    You are finding it harder now because although you may not feed deprived of having the cigarette, you are feeling deprived of your social life. You agreed to become a Non-smoker, not become friendless and lonely. Remember that all smokers wish they were non-smokers, your friends are no exception. Some wish you well, others hope you fail because they are Jealous. Watch out, some may even tempt you.

    Make your quit into a positive one with positive thoughts and doing positive things to make you happy. The nicotine hi-jacked the part of your brain which released dopamine (sense of happiness) That is why we only thought smoking made us happy. Meanwhile you have been educated here as to how be came addicted and lost control of our lives to it. Now it the time to get it back. Get back to living life! Concentrate on the good things, and the fact that you are already well on the way to becoming a Happy Non-Smoker.

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