Wow I hit the one week marker.
Days 5 and 6 were emotional. As one would expect; the emotional rollercoaster had me frustrated at people, crying over the most trifling things. It’s been a mess. But I’m grateful I got through them.
Totally fitting to get into this non-smoker mindset. I keep telling myself “I choose not to smoke”, “I am not a smoker now” and yes it is all fine and I do not have massive cravings.
But you see, I’m a loner. My friends at work are smokers. Whenever I see my smoker friends, I keep away from them, feigning to be super busy with work. I’ve quit smoking twice already and if I say “I quit smoking” again, they’ll laugh/ snicker and I feel like I will feel worse.
In other news, my anxiety is at an all-time high. I only have 2 cups of coffee each day, I do not know why I feel on edge most of the time.
I feel like crap most times. At the end of the day, I immerse myself in social media, keep up to date with family members etc.
I really want this and I will do this. I am tired though.