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Dejeppo
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9/10/2018
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Posted in Getting started 10 Oct 2018
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I first picked up a cigarette at 13. I am now going to be 25 at the end of the month and I realized that I never even gave myself a chance. I had my last cigarette this morning at 7:05 am (it's currently 11:39 am) and now I'm trying really really hard not to go out and buy a pack. With my father recently diagnosed with COPD (he also has emphysema) I've taken a step back and looked at myself. Do I want to end up down that road, terrified if I'm going to be able to breathe? We've all been short of breath for one reason or another.... would I want to live like that 24/7? I choose no. I am changing my routine and trying to find new friends to do new things with. My main trigger is being at work - since it's the off season where I work I have literally sat for a couple of weeks in silence watching grass grow.... All I want is a cigarette. But I have to quit, I need to quit. I want to smell better, I want better skin, I want more energy, I want to not feel so crappy all the time due to the amount of chemicals I've been willingly inhaling. I can almost HEAR that evil voice in the back of my mind telling me just one more.... one more and i'll be quiet... just one more.... But where does one more lead? Two more... three more....four more... Don't give in! I quit twice before, I can do it again. The only reason I started back up again was because of the people I chose to surround myself with. The time for change is now... I want my future child to remember me smelling fresh and clean, not doused with smoke and chemicals... I can do this.. I can do this. I CAN DO IT.

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  • Aniruddha October 10, 2018 | 5:48
    I have been smoking since I was 23. I have had periods of quitting successfully only to fall back into the habit. I am 47 now and in the 24 years I have quit 3 times. This is my 3rd quit. Almost 67 days today. The first quit lasted 5 years. The second one also lasted 5 years.

    What I have noticed is that it gets harder to quit as you grow older. My current quit is the hardest to stay quit.

    So what I am telling you is make this quit count. Quit while you are still young. Make it stick
  • Kitty-capricious, Mid North Coast October 11, 2018 | 15:29
    Relax hun the more you think about them and worry, the more you stress out and stress is a major trigger.
    Relax, listen to music that calms you find something to keep your hands busy.
    I have been making a pom pom. Lol.
    Look up crafts on YouTube. Colour in, draw.
    And practice deep breathing, to calm yourself and stay relaxed.
    You can do this! Keep reminding yourself of that.
    My mum passed away from cancer when i was 13, about 15 years ago, now im a mum myself, so i need to stay quit.
    Remind yourself of the dangers of smoking, and tell yourself you deserve better health.
    Good luck hun.
  • Kitty-capricious, Mid North Coast October 11, 2018 | 15:30
    Sorry i have a habbit of calling everyone hun, just realised i was doing that, my apologies, i hope you don't mind.
  • Lil zoo October 13, 2018 | 12:47
    Stay strong, breathe deep. Do this or you will soon be your dad. It gets harder each year you smoke to quit. We may as well fight the craving today and be healthier richer and happier. Today and one dayata time.
  • Lil zoo October 13, 2018 | 12:48
    Stay strong, breathe deep. Do this or you will soon be your dad. It gets harder each year you smoke to quit. We may as well fight the craving today and be healthier richer and happier. Today and one dayata time.

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