I have had to think of myself as a nonsmoker. After smoking for over fifty years, this is no small mind-shift! How? I’m on day 50 of being a nonsmoker, and have repeatedly told myself that I’m my own best friend, very proud of being a nonsmoker, and have to accept it because there is no option. No more cigarettes, and this means I am much more emotional than I have ever been, for as long as I can recall. But life is so much easier without cigarettes. I have no more anxiety about when and where I can smoke, if I’ll be able to smoke , how I’ll get through an extended period without cigarettes. I don’t have to worry about whether it’s raining, and whether I can get outside to smoke, and whether people will look at me in disgust and avoid me, and whether I smell bad, and how my teeth are yellowing, and how I feel tired and dehydrated.......all of that is behind me. In the past, because I am a nonsmoker. And I’m sure that smoking never solved anything. It just cost me a lot of money, a lot of self respect, and a lot of anxiety about my health. I’m grateful to myself for being strong and being my own best friend.
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