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WendyOhNo
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Five Months! WOW!

Posted in Quit experiences 20 Jan 2017
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Hi Everyone! I know it's already 20 January in your part of the world, but over here in the United States, it's still 19 January. Today is five months for me. Five months, ice cold turkey, not a smoke, not a nicotine replacement, nothing. I now crave cigarettes all the time. I'm in that 'reasoning' phase where my body is trying to negotiate with my brain. My body is telling my brain that if I quit for five months, surely I can pick up smoking for a little while and then put it down again. This is the conversation that goes on in my head almost every time I pass a store that sells cigarettes:

Body: Man, I sure would like a delicious cigarette

Brain: I don't think we should. You know we're addicted to cigarettes.

Body: Ya, but they are so delicious.

Brain: They certainly are.

Body: And look, you're still eating like there won't be any food tomorrow. Remember when you weighed 15 lbs less? That all started when you quit smoking.

Brain: Ya, I know. I've put on a whole size more since I quit.

Body: See... don't you miss being smaller...

Brain: Yup, I miss it. I wonder if I should just smoke long enough to lose this weight.

Body: Now you're talking! It's okay that you won't be able to breathe and your work, which is already laborious will be more laborious!

Brain: Oh! About that. Ya. I hated how much smoking slowed me down. Now, I can work for hours without needing any type of a break. Weird how I don't miss the cigarettes when I'm working non-stop...

Body: So, about that smoke. Are we gonna go get it or what?

Brain: Nope. Not today. I'm gonna hold out a little longer to see if the cravings will subside.

Body: Bummer. Well, there's always chips and soda and that thing called breathing.

And that, folks, is my life, every single day now. :) It's a good thing this constant cravings stuff hit around day 120. At that point, I already knew that I could stay quit. Now, I'm just being tempted all day long.

Other than that, I've had another medical procedure. The doctor was really happy that I was still quit. If you're preparing for a medical procedure, the best thing that you can do for yourself is to quit smoking. The more days you are quit, the better your circulation. Circulation is super important when your body is trying to heal.

Anybody want to talk about this? Are you new and have questions? Reply here and I'll reply back to you. You just gotta remember to check back for the answer!

Cheers!

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  • Judes January 20, 2017 | 15:02
    Oh my, quite a conversation to be having with your brain. Congratulations on being so strong. I expect to pack on some weight (already scoffing peanut m&m's at work), but hopefully my plan works and I make myself be more active. I know my two little dogs would like that. So many pro's for quitting, not many cons.
  • jenno211058 January 20, 2017 | 18:52
    Well congrats on reaching your great personal milestone of 5 months...
    Weather its 1 full day..1 week..1month..1 year..etc each of these are a major..major.
    major achievement for a smoker to reach any of these time frames....and along the way we are constantly reprimanding ourselves when a craving is nagging at the subconscious parts of our brains that..just 1 wouldn't hurt...go on just 1.......but we know ourselves we are not that person who can just have that 1..and all would be ok, yeah if only.....if it was like that we wouldn't be putting our thoughts n experiences to this page....
    In my 16 months...gee I have lost count the amount of times I have given myself a good telling off with the colourful language to go with it., even though I have no desire to smoke again, it would be a habit that I could easily side back into....and it would just be like old times, being a Slave again to something thankless....but like others we all know what we had to do to achieve our goals of booting this habit to the gutter...just don't want to be there again....
    So yeah keep having your conversations to your Brain whatever works for you....just do it..
  • Cranky76 January 20, 2017 | 20:25
    I hear you loud and clear Wendy! That 5 month mark was a shocker for me, nearly pulled my damn hair out. It's so strange hey? You can cruise along for a while, non smoker and not even thinking about it and BAM, like a brick to the head your smack back in the 'cravings stage'. Not nice at all.
    I had very similar conversations with myself, I wasn't quite as nice to the 'temptation voice' as you are but it worked and I got through it. I'm feeling much better now, will hit 6 months next week. You're doing fabulous! Good on you. ( insert cheering squad here) 😀
  • Johnnie, South Eastern Sydney January 21, 2017 | 16:02
    Hi Wendy.......what a brain chat....amazed me how you put your thoughts aloud so to speak. Look, you must not converse in your mind because the brain will always find excuses to win. The mind is stronger than the body and you will achieve what you set out to do....believe me this is what i was thought in my younger cadet years. Although i smoked then is besides the point something i enjoyed and never thought of giving up because my body was able to cope. When you young you feel like you bullet proof. Anyway the point i am trying to make is that the brain chat you are having is because your desire to smoke is still there. You "MUST" consider the bad things smoking was doing to you to have made you quit and then your mind set will just say not worth it . If you have just one it will be too many and 10 will not be enough. Then,sorry to say you will eventually reach the stage where your health will be effected as prior to quitting. I for one cannot go back after 6 mths quit having smoked 52 yrs because only i will know what i feel walking uphill. I am walking uphill not bad now without the "butterflies feelings" Hope this all helps Wendy and good luck to you and everyone 's journey on this site. Cheers.
  • Lia January 21, 2017 | 21:32
    Hi Wendy. I only have to lose another 11kg having lost one after 602 days living a smoke free life. Maybe we need another section on this site! How to lose weight. Feel free to share any get fit tips... We know lighting up is not on our list. Yes, we are smokers and as Johnnie says the brain will try to trip our thinking. There is simply no going back. I would hate to negate my 602 days and blow it all by finding a pathetic excuse. I enjoyed your body / brain conversation.
  • Dobbin January 22, 2017 | 11:44
    Hey Wendy. Congrats on your 5 months and we know how difficult your early days were. A hero that you stuck it out and have become a long term quitter. Thanks for sharing.
  • jenno211058 January 23, 2017 | 18:44
    Well congrats on reaching your great personal milestone of 5 months...
    Weather its 1 full day..1 week..1month..1 year..etc each of these are a major..major.
    major achievement for a smoker to reach any of these time frames....and along the way we are constantly reprimanding ourselves when a craving is nagging at the subconscious parts of our brains that..just 1 wouldn't hurt...go on just 1.......but we know ourselves we are not that person who can just have that 1..and all would be ok, yeah if only.....if it was like that we wouldn't be putting our thoughts n experiences to this page....
    In my 16 months...gee I have lost count the amount of times I have given myself a good telling off with the colourful language to go with it., even though I have no desire to smoke again, it would be a habit that I could easily side back into....and it would just be like old times, being a Slave again to something thankless....but like others we all know what we had to do to achieve our goals of booting this habit to the gutter...just don't want to be there again....
    So yeah keep having your conversations to your Brain whatever works for you....just do it..
  • Crasher January 24, 2017 | 14:24
    Well done Wendy!!!! Im so proud of you!!!!

    I follow your journey as you are only 1 week ahead of me. And what a journey you've had... Its not been easy for you - in fact it has been harder for you than most persons quitting I know. But persevered you did - even when it seemed all was hopeless. This Wendy, is a huge achievement for you (I give you a virtual hug) you go girl.

    I enjoyed your "conversation" - I have them too with my mind. Oh, and the weight!!!! I have gone up a whole size now too - whoa!!! but we can lose the weight - and if that's what it took for us to become smoke free - then so be it! In fact, I start kick-boxing next week - Im getting married in 11 months followed by a cruise honeymoon and I want my body back.

    But bring on the kick-boxing - Im looking forward to the exercise now my lungs can handle it all a bit more.

    (Danni has big happy smiles) Well done Wendy...

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