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Checkin in at 122 days

Posted in Quit experiences 23 Dec 2016

Well, folks, I have just finished my fourth month and have started my fifth. I'm now one cool customer. Very little gets me upset and when I do get upset, I don't think about smoking. That's very good news for all of you in your first and second months who are struggling with depression, tears, and anger. Go back a couple of months and check out my posts. I thought for sure that the sky was going to cave in on my head and that the end of the world was just around the corner. Guess what? It's not! I'm so much less anxious now than I was before. In the beginning, I had read on some websites that if you struggled with anxiety and depression, quitting smoking could actually make it worse. Well, it does - but temporarily!

So, when do I want a cigarette now? When I want to celebrate. Yes! I want to smoke when I want to celebrate not smoking. Strange, huh? I just want one smoke. But, I know that there's no such thing as one smoke. One puff equals what could potentially be hundreds of cartons. As it stands, in the four months that I've quit, I've already not smoked FIFTEEN cartoons. Imagine that, over 3,000 cigarettes. If you were to dump 3,000 cigarettes out at my feet, the pile would come to the middle of my shins (and I'm a pretty tall girl!). I want ONE cigarette, but if that one cigarette means that I may have to smoke 3,000 (or more) cigarettes to make up for the addiction I just kick-started again, then I want no cigarettes.

My current battle since I stopped smoking is that I'm allergic to everything. The nicotine and the chemicals in cigarettes cover our mast cells and we may find that once our mast cells are able to function, they over-produce and make us allergic to more than we care to be allergic to. I'll have to see an allergist and an immunologist soon.

Oh= a bonus to not smoking - I can work - like a horse. I go all day long without needing a break because. The smokers who work with me are dragging at half-a-day - figuratively and figuratively!

Don't give up new quitters. You'll get to write this same kind of post very soon.

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  • Caz Kib, Hunter New England December 23, 2016 | 17:09
    Thank you for posting I'm 21 days smoke free a having a lot of just one more thoughts today so I logged on and yours was the first post I seen.

    The horrible cravings are playing with my head. Just one more your done so well one won't hurt.

    So you couldn't have posted at a better time agin thank you.

  • WaveRippers December 24, 2016 | 0:46
    I am on Day 31 ......I am feeling so much better !!! Thanks for the look into what my future may hold for me as a none smoker .............Keep up the good work !!!
  • Lia December 24, 2016 | 1:22
    Hi WendyOhNo. Yes definitely beware of the craving that tells you to reward yourself with just one... You said it. One puff leads to another and another and before you know it the reward is anything but... My craving, named "Margaret Thatcher" still suggests I reward myself after 570 something days. There is no going backwards for me. and you too, must resist such thoughts of just one puff...
  • Dobbin December 24, 2016 | 22:58
    Congrats WendyOhNo for your three months. A massive achievement and much more than massive as us fellow quitters know. The rewards are fantastic and as you eloquently said the early misery does pass and a new beginning starts to take shape. Why would we take one puff ?? The insanity is some of us do. Let's be strong and stay quit.
  • stardaf December 25, 2016 | 1:46
    Day 1. Deep breath.

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