6 months today since last cigarette
Well today is 6 months since last cigarette. Still on track. Still think about them at times, eg when I smell my neighbour outside having a cigi and when I am stressed i automatically go to get one - but don’t have any to get. When this happens - this auto mode - I know I am still a long way from being mentally free of them. I wonder how long it will take for this mental ‘auto mode’ to disappear. When it happens I just remind my self that smoking is not for me and the thoughts go away.
My hubby used to reach for a cigarette when he saw the wisp of smoke from the mosquito coil. We do things instinctively like driving past the turn and instead thinking we are headed for work. We have to just laugh at these things. They mean nothing just as a dream, of smoking is a dream and not to be taken as an omen. I think many people have this dream and wake up wondering why but thankful that it was just a dream. They do not hold a secret desire to smoke.....just the opposite. I am sure this time will pass but meanwhile you are doing right by just not dwelling on it.
I am also looking forward to the thoughts to disappear but i have noticed it is now not as strong a thought than the ones i had at 4 1/2 months ago i have also noticed i handle any thoughts of smoking during stressful situations so much more better now
Thank you 2bfree
IIt is good to hear that the thoughts get less, I am worried however, they are going to be a pain in my butt for the rest of my life.