3rd week in. New to forum

I have been a moderate 15/day smoker for 30 years.

I have hidden my smoking for so many years. Constantly chewing gum and spraying perfume. I was so embarrassed that I had this terrible addiction but was so scared of failing that I never tried to stop with full conviction. I just thought I couldn’t do it, but eventually knew that I had to before it killed me. I had been playing with fire for 30 years.

My husband smokes heavily and listening to his morning coughing fits finally did it for me. I hope for his sake and our 4 kids sake that he will see me stop and do it too.

I am trying to stay positive and can say that this week has been a little easier than the last 2.

I have had terrible fatigue that I thought would never end and anxiety that came along with cravings but would stay for a good hour or so. (Which is why I have been geeling so fatigued. It is exhausting) The anxiety is yet to leave completely.

Deep breathing, sips of water, writing down why I am stopping and saying the list out loud have helped.

I have set little exercise goals to see if I can jog a little in the middle of my walks which I can. Yay!!! And try and beat the time I can do it for on each walk. I had teary days where everything seemed devastating and I hated those so much but they seem to have passed. Thank god.

I can’t believe how strong of a hold those horrid little choking sticks had on me but I can do this one day at a time. And if I can so can anyone else.

I just have to keep going. This community will help me and I will help anyone I can too.

We are all in this together