Wake up Call

My reason for giving up was that I no longer cared about what I was doing to muself .I was sad and depressed and would drink and smoke like a chimely,and feel sorry for myself,I had underlying athsma which I didnt seek medical advice about and everynight was waking up coughing and wheezing, eventually my health gave in and I had a athsma attack which landed 2 days in hospital and a week a half recovering at home.I then decided that I need to stop doing this to myself as I have 2 beautiful kids that need me the most and stuff everyone else who were selfish enough to make my life unhappy.