90 days :)

Hey all,

I hit 90 days today.

1st holiday smashed, was nice walking along the beach and enjoying my holiday with out thinking every 40mins "shit I need a smoke"!

1st child's birthday without smoking and needing a hit every 40mins.

I had my first birthday in 20yrs where I wasn't needing a hit every 40mins, and thinking how can I keep smoking and getting older and playing Russian Roulette. So yeah that was a good one 🙏

Put on nearly 10kgs. Trying not to hate myself, by throwing all the love & compassion and excuses I can until I'm ready to stop acting like a depressed, sad, lonely little 2yr old.

I know I'll come good and start looking after myself.

But I'm just trying now to give myself a break!

Oh I've had slip ups too. Not enough pull on the old cigs tho now to go back, I laugh now at how they have no power over me, that feels good, especially when I have a slip, *which is always when I carnt fit anymore food in :/

Go easy on yourself hey

:)