Confession
Hi everyone,
I haven't visited this site for a long time. I have to confess something, a month ago I slipped. I was out with a girl I have known since January and she smokes. Most of my friends smoke but I am ok with that. This time something was different, she is in a way passionate smoker and I was too tempted not to smoke so I asked her for one, two, three... Next night the whole episode was repeated: alcohol and cigarettes - 3 packs of cigarettes I think. After the second night I told myself that it didn't matter and that it wasn't a reason to start smoking again. I haven't had any more since that. I m really afraid that I m not strong enough and that I ll slip again. :(
I imagine you're feeling pretty crap about this slip up so you don't need anyone else to berate you. If you weren't feeling crap then you wouldn't have come back to this site and "confessed". Listen, flower, you slipped up, worse things happen at sea. Just get that paddle back and had for dry land. (No idea where that came from, perhaps too much coffee). Perhaps spend a little less time with this passionate smoker but that your call no-one else's. Do what is best for you. Let us know how you get on.
Hi Lady K, How much will you enjoy the habit when the cost of the thrill is $40 a packet. Best to start quitting now. Am so glad I did 401 days ago, cold turkey. Surely someone who is pig headed enough to persevere in order to start smoking can reverse the pig headedness to actually quit. Any idea how you may spend those $'s saved from the ashtray?
its that shame spiral of addiction I used feel shame because I don't want to use so I use more to make me feel better, see how it goes round and round.
hop off the merry go-round go get some help with the stuff that's inside it needs to come out :)
IC
"After the second night I told myself that it didn't matter and that it wasn't a reason to start smoking again. I haven't had any more since that."
^^^That right there is something you should be proud of. A lot of people in a similar situation would have said that they give up and went back into the habit. You have the strength to fall and get back up again, be proud of it and use this as a learning experience.
You should share with you're passionate smoker that you're a exsmoker and that in the future please don't offer me one as I'm at the part of my quit journey that I could give in and be a smoker again, tell them the truth as they might join you on being smoke free