Want to be clean
This is day 88 for me. I used nicotine tablets for 84 days. A lot at first and then down to little at the end. I have started to feel like a non smoker sometimes now instead of just someone that's trying to quit. I smoked for 30 years about a pack and a half a day. I tried several times over the last year to quit. Made it one day or three days. Stuff like that. Finally I just got really angry about it and quit for this longer period. I am amazed how deep the addiction is. It keeps trying to call me back saying my life will be better and it won't kill me or make me sick. It really helps me to read the stories of other people so I don't feel alone or feel like I am really strange for how I think.
Wow, day 88 is amazing and you were smoking so many. The number per day kind of creeps up on you doesn't it. But well done for stopping, I can't wait to get there. Day 2 still for me and it doesn't seem too bad most of the time, then this cursed niggle makes me think about it. What amazes me is how some friends just have no idea what an amazing accomplishment for me 2 days not smoking is. I want to sing from the hills and they want to change the subject. So glad I found this group to talk to about it. You're not alone, we're all in this together
we had to believe all those thoughts to stay smoking, otherwise we would have had to stop a long time ago, I smoked for 30+ years also, and its like reprograming a computer.
in with new info out with the old but unless its a full clean install which it isn't , some of those old thoughts will remain, so for me I had to challenge them and still do.
this is how we reprogram its by changing all those thoughts that allowed me to smoke .
if we are honest there is not one good reason to suck poison in to our lungs??
really there are easier and much less painful and quicker ways to kill ourselves.
its hard to brake 30+ year old habits even if they are destructive , but we are only braking one here and that's smoking surely we can all do that :)
IC
WhiteWillow that's why we need each other , because no smokers don't understand how can they and probably just think we are weak anyway for smoking, bet they have their thing they cant live without that's destructive.
so yes that's why we need each other cause only another smoker can understand and we know that and that's why we are well qualified to help each other :)
well done on day 2 , keep it going it goes quick and for me the longer I am away from that last smoke the harder it is to go back.
so you are doing great !!
IC
Thanks for the encouragement. Yes we are in this together and people that haven't gone through this can't possibly understand