203 days

It has been a few weeks since I have ben on here and pleased that there are so many newbies hanging in there, I know from my own experience it is not easy.

I went cold turkey 203 days ago,no slip ups(but I think about it all the time) but I am now much stronger than that. I do not want to give up my new freedom of being a non smoker, I quiet like it.

I have saved $3800.00 and as mentioned in previous posts "the money I have wasted on smoking really gets me angry" I even went to the ciggie counter (at the supermarket where I always shop) and asked how much for a packet of my smokes? OMG and a little party dance and a big smile on my face she said $37.89

I still keep busy (I as wasting about 2.45 hours a day smoking) Now I don't have enough hours in the day. Recently I can now sit outside with a cuppa without wanting or missing a smoke and it is so good to go out and not keep popping outside for a ciggie all the time. I don't smell like a packet either but I certainly can pick a smoker by the smell 50 yards away, and that WAS me but no more. I am in control and I never thought I would or could say that. I am now retired and enjoying this new part of my life. You might say that I probably have no stress to work against me but believe me I have a son with terminal cancer and I thought it would be impossible to quit under all this stress but the ciggies really didn't help,gave me something to do,made me sit down and concentrate on the ciggie I was smoking,I was relaxing outside doing what I wanted. I still relax outside ,I keep busy and I really enjoy being a non smoker. So guys, hang in there,it's 1 stubborn habit to stop, you want to cry and scream,you feel weak,you feel so damn angry,you want to smoke. If you slip up,don't beat yourself up about it you are not a failure because you have tried, get back on that bike and give another shot…..IT IS SO WORTH IT