Looking forward to a smoke free dinner

I can't wait to go out tonight. I'm going out to the pub as a surprise going away dinner for a friend. The reason I'm looking forward to it is because I won't have to smoke. I think I've finally turned a bit of a corner. Instead of feeling apprehensive and on edge that I won't be able to or that I can't because silly me has given up again, arrgghh. Instead of being annoyed about it and not wanting to go or worse making an excuse not to go. I've somehow changed my attitude and am looking forward to the challenge. I just want to go and eat some yummy food and just be able to sit and relax and talk with a nice glass of wine with dinner. I don't want to have to be totally consumed with thoughts of where to escape for a smoke and then have to hide the smell. The alternative would have been not smoking all night but having to sit there not being able to concentrate on the conversation because I constantly just want a smoke. This is such a relief I don't have to do either of those things, I just have to enjoy my freedom and not worry about it. What a RELIEF I say!