Proud of myself
I have been struggling for the last two days. Urge to smoke is high and I am missing it a bit. Not sure why because I feel better.
Phone call from some friends, normal Saturday night. Coming out tonight? My reply, no! But I might come around for a bit before you head out.
Thought in my head, oh! Everyone that will be there are smokers. This isn't going to end well.
Home now, spent 3 hours there. Not one single drag of a smoke tonight. 10 people there, 4 people were non smokers including my self. The rest smoke like trains. I stood outside talking to everyone else, I barely even felt like a smoke. Got in my car to come home and realised how much I stunk of cigarettes from just being around everyone else. Thought to myself, wow I used to smell like an ashtray. Glad I'm home in bed and not wheezing/coughing away like I used to after a night out with my friends.
Think I just need to still get it that I don't miss it at all when I think of the small things like no shortness of breath, coughing, wheezing any more. It's actually great :)
Well done , there are days where you would love one. However I always think the next day how annoyed I would be with myself if I had given into a craving the previous day and that keeps me going. I always think N. O.P. E. (Not One Puff Ever ) and that's what I have to think because I couldn't stand to go back to it. Keep strong you are going really well. Keep posting x
Thanks. I'm glad I'm stubborn sometime, old me would have gave in and smoked last night. But I didn't and that is the main thing :)