my update

Ok so the last time I posted I had been smoke free for 5 days........it is now day 44!!!! I can't believe how far I have come and the obstacles I have overcome, I am so proud of myself. I initially started on Champix but stopped them after a few days I felt that I didn't want to give up one dependency only to pick up another. I haven't used anything else, no ecigs, patches, gum etc it's all been my sheer willpower that has gotten me through (mind you it's willpower that I didn't think i had)

This was my 2nd serious attempt at quitting and I thought I would change my approach and attitude this time round. Last time I really didn't care if I quit or not. I lasted 10 weeks (with a puff here and there in between).

This time I wanted to quit for me and more importantly my husband and family. I'm determined to live a more healthier lifestyle so that I can be here instead of potentially cutting my life short. I guess one of the major deterrents for me smoking again is the memory of that very first ciggie I had last time I quit and how terrible it tasted, I really don't wanna put myself through that again. Another reason.....I have friends and work colleagues who still smoke and whenever they come back from a smoke break, they stink!! It's in their clothes, their hair not to mention their breath. I think too myself WOW did I smell like that too? 

It definitely has been a tough road that I've travelled but I did it with my head held high. I've pushed myself through the cravings (which eventually pass), the mood swings, the irritation/aggravation and of course the rest of the lovely withdrawal symptoms that you get. But the one thing that you HAVE  to realise is that it all passes in the end. The cravings lessen and become less frequent as well as all the other withdrawals. 

My advice to anyone trying to quit is to persevere. It's a long road to becoming a non smoker but definitely achievable, I mean look at me I'm day 44!! When I last posted I read other stories about people reaching day 50 or 100 and I thought damn how am i gonna get that far when I feel like crap, all i want is 1 lousy cigarette. But I'm so glad I never had it. 

I had a dream last night and in that dream i had caved and had a smoke. I know it's just a dream but the disappointment that i felt  because i had broken a promise to myself just felt so real. I was glad when I woke up and realised it was just a silly dream.

I wish everyone the best off luck on their journeys and hope that the next time I post will be a massive milestone like 100 days!!!

Peace out, BEL.