stressed out

Since I was diagnosed with COPD (Emphaseyma or what ever) I haven't had a ciggy, that was back in June this year and I continue to use patches.The level of the lung disease is moderate which sounds okay but sometimes it is hard to breath.Don't want to smoke anymore because of what has happened and it is now affecting my ability to work.That scares me cause I need work to keep my mind off negative thoughts.But I am glad I don't smoke  any more. Had a real bummer of a day at work the other day and I had to leave before I did something I'd regret, felt like a smoke then but said" don't smoke no more" and felt empowered by saying that. Every day without a ciggy is a victory for me.