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hi there. My name is Dorothy a gamer4life. I have been smoking since I was 9 i'm now 54 I think lol. I have a heart condition. My heart goes into shock even when I sleep. I ended up in Panorama Hosp. Friday. O i'm from Cape Town. My whole life was worry - worry - worry. I did not had a great free spirited life. I can remember when I took my first drag it was from moms cigarette. She used to ask me to light her one when she was driving and later on it became my habit or addiction. I tried so many times to stop but the smallest of small thing triggers and I start again. Sometimes I hate myself for smoking because of the smell. It sits in your hair on your clothes and you always smells like a ashtray.
I want to stop for my health. If I don't I won't see 60 my life is still a battle and I still feel like worry is my life but I do need to stop smoking I can't afford it anymore. I don't want it to run my life for me anymore. I'm addicted to the tar or nicotine and I need to stop so I asked the doctor to give me something to help me he gave me champix so I am going to give it a try. I'm excited and I believe it will give me the nudge to help me to stop because cold turkey I can't do it. I had been on and off cigarettes but this time I want it to be final.
I'm scared but honestly I need to stop for my doggies and my son. They are the only family I have and they need me.
Hi Dorothy,
Well done in taking the first steps to becoming smoke free :o) Its not easy but it is possible. I used chuppa chups lollies in the early days so when I got bad cravings I had a lollypop rather than a ciggie.
Stay strong and keep posting
Your story reminds me so much of mine except I'm 52. I was 54 days cold turkey then had a few here and there and now restarting after day 56days so I'm on day one again.
It's must be the hardest thing I have ever done but I feel so much better for it. the smokes I did smoke on relapse have made it more clear it will kill me if I keep going.
You keep going you can do it one day a time.