A Clean Life All round
I guess the title speaks for itself.
A clean life all round, for me.... means living in a world (my world) of pure clarity, control and clean living. A clear mind, body and soul.
I would love to be able to trust my judgment, be confident, have certainty and power to move forward in life...for the better. Become accomplished, successful, to be a better mother, girlfriend, daughter, sister etc...
I'm 21 years old. I am at a stage in life where i've become responsible for a dependant child ( My 8month daughter). I am doing my best to be a mother better than my own. I want to be able to provide for my family, nurture my family, myself and of course the love of my life ( my boyfriend).
However... i've come terms with understanding I'm just not that 'type' of person to balance smoking, health, money and personal goals. I just can't do it. I am unable to look at life as a bigger picture.... i cannot seem to see the future i have. I know it. I am kinda stuck within my own thoughts and being. I guess smoking weed and tobacco isn't helping at all. In fact. IT IS THE REASON to my stagnant and passive state. I have all this THC and TOBACCO in my system it is blinding my reasoning skills, skills to interact, skills to quite frankly evolve.
You see, when your body becomes a HOST to these substances... it starts to go through this viscous cycle. A cycle of rotting the body slowly.... both mentally and physically. I'm not going to go into this, but I'm sure if your reading this you know what i mean. SMOKING KILLS (no ****sherlock).. just like cancer or HIV. They are all different properties but all come to 1 conclusion. Your body is unfortunately going through what I call (you've probably heard this before) ' A Slow Suicide'.
I mean, personally i don't wanna die.
... Not any time soon of course. I'd like to be at my best. At all times. Not materialistically... but internally.
The firsts few steps i've taken; i've adapted to clean eating as a lifestyle... with obvious exceptions of indulging to the things i love.
Trying to HUMBLE as well.. very important.
keeping fit is another aspect in life to be aware and devoted to. Training your body to endure pressure in positive ways is vital to living a long life.
These are my reasons to quit... ^^^^^^
I always say... Be your own master.
p.S I hope i've motivated some people here. including myself. i will go over this post whenever I FEEL like this journey of quitting seems tough.
GOOD LUCK COMRADES!!!!
It is great that you have chosen to contemplate a clean life all round and that you are so aware of what the impediments are to it and the challenges of sticking to a regime. Well done on your choice - your little girl will very much appreciate it and you will feel wonderful. It is really hard but the support on this website is fantastic. Good luck to you also.
Hi Helen. I felt both sad & happy whilst reading this. Happy that you have such goals and strong determination but sad because you can't see the big picture yet. You will. This reminded me a bit of myself 20 odd years ago. You have such maturity and wisdom in your words for such a young age. You know what you want, trust in yourself. I always thought I wasn’t that “type” of person also. I think it’s just the way we are wired and comes from our belief system from childhood. However, you can truly be any kind of person you want to be in life. You just have to believe it. None of us really know what the future holds but you can certainly create it. Hold a picture in your mind of what you want. If you see yourself as that person walking just one step ahead of yourself eventually you will catch up to her and you’ll be surprised when you actually find you’ve become her. An older friend of mine told me to do this in my 20s, to see yourself literally walking ahead every where you go, notice the nice new clothes, the confidence in the way you walk, head held high – I did that & sure enough I did catch up to become that person, I was amazed. Lastly, you can trust your own judgement, I too struggle with this, but you’re here, writing this, that’s enough good judgement for me to see you can trust yourself to make good decisions. Don’t let anyone else judge or rule your world for you. It’s your life, only you can do that. You’ve taken the first steps in the right direction, so well done. Wishing you all the best.
Thank you for reading this firstly. and for your support. this just gave me an idea of how much support i can get here. i take what you both say into consideration. tTHANK YOU SO MUCH