Chest X-ray

I got my results back from my chest x-ray today and although they weren't good they weren't drastically bad either. Well, according to what they say, I'm sure I'll live to tell another story. The x-ray result was that I should have a follow up CT scan but the GP say's it's not worth doing as the radiation could have adverse effects on it's own being in that area. Considering the damage so far a CT scan won't show much more & there's nothing they can do to fix it anyway as the damage is done. Believe it or not I was an asthmatic as a child & still ended up smoking so they figure the damage is a combination of the two. As long as I don't ever smoke again I should be ok. Phew! I've booked in to get a Spirometry test (lung function test) instead. So, this has just re-iterated once again, my determination not to go back. I won't risk it. I'm too happy to go back anyway. I'm in control of my life now & although I'm not happy about the outcome, well, what was I expecting? a clean bill of health after smoking for 26 years after chronic childhood asthma!? Anyway, I'm happy it's not a lot worse but I'm pretty damn disappointed in myself actually. What was I thinking all those years, who was I kidding, I'm feeling sorry that I've done this to myself. Happy that I've stopped but wish I'd done it sooner or not at all. I'm worth more than that, I just never realised it! Well, my moment of disappointment is done, there's no looking back only forward & on & on with quality of life and loving every minute, because we are all worth it! Here's to never looking back.