Momma
I turned 38 and realized that my mother never reached 39. She never smoked a day in her life and was relatively healthy besides having epilepsy. I remember i was 15 and the policeman who performed cpr on her thought I was her friend...he thought my mother was in her early 20's. I want to live to have children of my own and I don't want to look like I'm 50 in my 40's. I am thankful for every moment I had with my mother and reaching this milestone is surreal. I don't want to cut my life short and at this stage I value quality over quantity. The REST of my life will be smoke FREE!
Oh wow. What a sad, heartfelt storey. I'm 37 and have a 6 month old bub. I'm on day 50 without a smoke. I wish you all the best on your journey. The uncomfortable feeling I sometimes get when I want a smoke is nothing compared to what you have been through. Wish I could say something more or give you some inspiration like you have given me. Good luck.
Thank you AllyV and penelopejane that day I was feeling really low writing it out made me feel a lot better. I'm on day 43 and thank you both for cheering me on....Words do matter and they are enough.