First step again

I have quit several times, some attempts more successful than others. I refuse to let myself say/think/feel that any attempt failed, because every time I choose not to have just one is a success (Positive thinking). But pick any and every reason, I have lit up again. The most successful attempt to date was champix a few years ago. I went two and a half months. I was positive and feeling good. I avoided coffee and booze (my two most potent triggers, or so I thought). I moved with my new wife to a new life in qld. And there the problems started. We moved in with her Dad for what we thought was a couple of weeks until we sourced a place, got comfortable in the new jobs we had aquired and basically got comfortable. Then the problems started. The work didn't eventuate and I entered a cycle of boredom. I was still looking for work, but rejection after rejection (I had always thought that 'overqualified' was a fallacy- not so much). I was signed up for job seeker training. On day two the woman who ran the group reviewed our resumes and was struck speechless when she saw I had two degrees, but I digress. I got bored. There is only so much that can be done in a day without work, in someone elses house and a car that needed repairs I couldn't afford. Then one day I was sitting outside, reading a book and found myself smoking. I honestly can't remember where the half packet came from. At best guess I think that it was a pack that had been left by a visitor, but I never looked into it too far, I didn't even really think about it. A week later, a new pack was in my pocket and self esteem started to plummet. I was a smoker again so I gave up being a quitter. I had made it through the first week of side effects, I had gone months without a cigarette, and more days than not I never even thought about smoking. I want to get back to that. I liked that me. I want him back. I have finally found fulfilling employment and have more than enough projects to keep me occupied at home. I haven't drunk in years and have even quit most forms of caffine. I need to take that first step again, this time, better prepared for the long haul.