One smoke too many

How many millions of cigarettes have I had and each one was 'one too many'. I need plastic surgery on my lip. I must not smoke. My lip bleeds. It needs to be stitched. I get chest pains from anxiety. I am quite frightened at the moment. I will be able to stop. I had one cigarette today. My lip is weeping again tonight. The smoke I had was from sitting in the smoking area when I developed a bad attitude. I was tired. I must not find any excuses and take really good care of myself. There are many good things in store. This health scare is just that. It is scaring me.