reasons to quit

i have been smoking since i was 17 years old and at the time i did not realize the overall impact it would have on my health. now in my late 20's i am understanding that it was not worth the trouble i put myself through, in saying that i have also come to my senses the impact it has had on my family. my overall fitness dropped substantially as once i was an inspiring athlete who could have achieved so much but that did not go according to plan. why? because i made a choice, a poor one considering i should have given it more thought. now i am bearing the consequences of my choice. whether it was stress, peer pressure, study load, anxiety or anything else? it didn't matter because i should not have gone down this path.

being cool with a cigarette in my hand at one time now looks more delusional than the fact that i can give 100% again in respect to my fitness.

i wake up breathless and sometimes find it difficult to breathe although i am thankful to god i have not been diagnosed with emphesema, i am hoping that never happens but i am pretty close, just on the border line as you may say.

i am deciding to quit so i can help myself as i feel i owe it to my self. i do not care if stopping excludes me from certain groups of people, however i would feel better and at the end of the day i would like to be optimistic about my approach any further decisions i make in life.

i have been down a heavy road and i am hopeful once i have quit for good in near future i would like to help spread the message across. i am a really public speaker and motivater, however i never used that tool in regards to smoking because i did not want to be a hypocrite. but now i am hopeful i can make a difference.

i may stumble, i may fail a couple of times or many, but i will not stop. i will not give up on myself. i will grow out of empty ignorance and into a phase where my will power grows until i am strong enough to defend myself from relying on things that only damage me further.

it is a hard journey! you know? somebody once told me... "smoking is more addictive than heroin kid" well i laughed it off... trust me... you... yes you.... it may not be 100% but that does not mean it is not true at all...

i want to quit so i can hold onto whatever health i have, improve my fitness and be there for my family rather than be a burden or leave them hanging holding onto sad memories...

if you can avoid it... then do something about it!!! it is selfish to just think about your own self...

hope you gained something from this reading, if not then i hope you find something else that helps you break the chain of diseases by practicing preventative measures in respect to your health and wellbeing.

peace out kay :)