OK, so I love my kids more than my ciggies
I am so blessed to be a mum to my beautiful 5 yr old twin girls. The guilt I feel every time I walk into a smoke shop with them, every time I tell them "mum can't play with you just now" as I light up a smoke, every time they stand on the other side of the door waiting for mum to put out the ciggie so she can come back inside and spend time with them, gnaws away at me constantly. I have set a quit date for tomorrow. I have to do this for them, for myself and for our family before these dreadful things kill me and destroy our little family (melodramatic, I know!). I am so nervous though, and so fearful that I will succumb to my love of ciggies ahead of all that is most precious to me. But I've also never had as much motivation to quit as I do right now. Wish me luck for tomorrow!
Hey BillyV, go for it and best of luck. I have been thinking of going cold turkey and trying to get the courage to set a date. After reading your post, I set the date for tomorrow morning. Maybe we can start a good thing together and compare notes. From tomorrow, we are non smokers.
Thanks so much Gam - wow, 4 days! Well done - that seems like a lifetime from where I'm starting. You're going to get through Day 5 just fine..
Hey CD, I'm so glad you've decided to quit tomorrow too - let's definitely do this together. I feel even more motivated to know that I've got a buddy. We're going to do this :-)
Thanks dr.feelgood... I guess I just have to maintain focus on why I need to do this and think of all the positives of being a non-smoker - starting tomorrow! Thanks for your support
Hi BillyV,
Well, first morning. I usually stand in the front door of my shop and have my first coffee each day at about 6am, with at least two ciggies. We all know how much we think we enjoy those first couple each day, good news is I've had the coffee and it was all good. Even had a chuckle to myself about being an "ex smoker".
Next big test is I walk my dog every morning in this beautiful park nearby, and ALWAYS have 2 or 3 while walking and playing with my dog.
Going to go for the walk soon, will update you on how I went.
Good luck with your first morning, remember the kids and your reasons for doing it. Let us know how you're doing.
Sorry about the duplicate posts, if I refresh the page it seems to add a repeat post.
Hi CD - how did it go after your walk? I'm feeling a bit shaky & light-headed at the moment. Have just popped the gum in & that's a bit of a distraction. I knew this morning would be tough as I usually pump most of them in early in the day, but so far am holding it together. Am at work - trying to focus on catching up with filing, etc. Hang in there - let's just aim to get through the end of the day!
Hi Miss C - I know what you mean - I went cold turkey the minute I found out I was pregnant. But with the stress of having 2 screaming babies 24/7, I started up again 3 months after they were born. Although I never smoke anywhere near the kids, I still feel sorry for them having to smell my stinky breath & clothes when we cuddle. My hubby's a non-smoker & a fitness freak, which makes it a bit easier for me to avoid temptation. It would be harder in your case with your fiance still smoking around you, but I'm sure you'll make the decision to give it away once you're ready, and who knows, your fiance might just jump on the bandwagon also!
Hey BillyV,
All good so far. Been through about four what I would call "challenge points" today and got through them all okay. Been having some cravings but each time I get one I say, okay, I can have a ciggie in 60 seconds.
Then I time myself and give myself 30 seconds to think of all the good things I would get from a ciggie, like the joy of actually smoking, then I give myself 30 seconds to make a mental list of everything I will gain if I don't have the cig. So far it's all good.
Keep at it BillyV, every minute more that you last is one minute closer to being a permanent non smoker.