for yourself first

im a mother of 4 children whom i love dearly their ages are 14yr 10 yr 17 months and 5 months. when i was 35 weeks pregnant with my youngest  i was rushed to hospital bleeding thinking i had lost my daughter hours later the doctors told me the baby was still alive omg i was so happy but then.....i heard those words stop smoking...or i could loose my daughter. well it had finally happened i was cocky i guess because the other 3 kids were okay after i smoked a pack of 50 a day for 28 years....i knew this was going to be hard i stopped for 2 weeks before she was born at 37 weeks wow she is amazing nearly  5 and a half months and i couldnt be happier because i have her and her siblings, im not really religous but....i do thank god everyday i have them all. im 38 and hope to be around for along time to see them all grow....my best advice so far is to be strong :)