2nd week hurdles
So... Sunday 7th June was the big day hubby and i finished our last vape.
I work from home (the office is in Sydney and i live in Central West NSW) So most days its just me and my computer so i would vape at my desk while working. The first week was tough but i managed it.
Day 10 hit and i broke down. Couldnt control a single thought or emotion. I snapped at everyone and cried myself to sleep that night, but i didnt vape. I went out and bought patches, many bags of sour lollies and thought tomorrow is a new day. We can do this.
I struggled through each work day after that. I woke up this morning in a very sad/stressed mood which was hard to shake. Hubby even sat me down and explained how worried he was for my mental health. We drove for hours today trying to find someone who had a vape we could buy. None around anywhere and cigarettes make me feel ill these days so i cant find the relief im looking for there. This week has been harder than the first and so very hard to see the light at the end of the really long tunnel.
Hi @Strugglestreet87 - welcome and thanks for reaching out and sharing your experience. Apologies for not replying sooner we are a small team and I've had some time off recently.
It sounds like those first few weeks were much harder than you expected, especially when the emotional side of things really hit around Day 10. The fact that you got through that breakdown and made a plan for the next day is so impressive. It sounds like you have a good support circle too.
Please be kind to yourself. What you’re going through is incredibly tough. I promise there is light at the end of the tunnel - it's such a cliche but quitting is a journey and taking it one moment, craving and day at a time is enough for right now. If you haven't already I truly recommend calling up our Quitline on 137848 - they are so understanding and full of wisdom to help with the withdrawals and emotional aspects too.
I hope those cravings passed for you. The vapes are even worse than cigarettes in my personal experience and I've also had others tell me how much worse it is for your health. I think they are also more addictive and can imagine the panic you and your husband felt during the episode you have shared in this post. It's crazy how something can have such a hold over you. Whatever happened, whether you got one or not, I hope you are proud of the time you went without that device. xx