Not being mean to myself

Had some stressful health issues diagnosed yesterday. Forgot to put a patch on. Stayed up late the night before which made me extra tired. Had an argument with my wife and I craved a cig. Had one. Trying to not have another one. Deep breathing helps. Reminding myself of the reasons why I don't want to stop helps. Not being mean to myself for having one helps. It's ok. Today is a blue sky day.