My experience seems different to others?

DAY 29 I am not sleeping. I do bedtime routine. read a little. turn light out & put earbud in... and lay there in a relax zone until the meditation/hypnosis/story ends, then I get up do a wee & put on another one. Over & OVER. I took half a quetiapine last night but still didn't finally drop into sleep until 5am. I am tired and grumpy. I have no patience. I snap at people. I am teary. I would like to crawl under a rock & stay there until this is over. When I go to bed @ night my daytime brain chaos & lack of energy seem to recede. I think "Time to sleep now, that's a good plan I'll do it tomorrow" but then I wake up in the morning & think that I am very tired so go back to sleep (10am-1pm depending). When I do get up I can not focus, I feel pain, sweats & discomfort i; hence, the plan I made last night is way too overwhelming & doesn't get thought of again until I'm trying to go to sleep My daughter tells me I "need to see someone" but my VS counsellor passed me on (to the ether) as she's not doing VS anymore. I am seeing my new GP weekly but he literally does not have a clue about me or my history. Just smiles and nods