Part 4 Quit - Part 1

Well hi there people, I'm in a much better mood yesterday and today since i chose not to accept in my mind that cigarettes were a reward when i completed a chore. I had become quite lazy doing my usual chores as somewhere in my head told me, you usually smoked after doing something and that reward was no longer available so my chores got a by ball for a couple of weeks and now Im at the stage where I was looking at my home and my mood was anger at myself as I had let myself become overwhelmed with thoughts that....omg ive this to do, ive that to do, so much so that I didnt even want anyone come visit my home because I know how i'm usually perceived. People would remark....awk Paula your house is like a wee palace, how do you keep your home so clean and you work all day, you're a credit to yourself Paula..you get the drift. For the last couple of weeks my mood has been awful . see next paragraph