stay quitted

not only is the money exhausting my bank account but my lungs could barely keep up with the oxygen i needed. i slept alot in the first couple weeks, weeks three and four i found to be almost frantically irritating. i was so mad and on edge every minute but i fought through remembering how great it was to take a deep breath and not cough. after 42 days, the cravings are not as bad as they were although they do still come and tense me right up. i just remember how i can take a deep breath and not cough. i havent noticed the extra money as other invoices keep showing up and i wonder how could i afford these surprise bills and keep smoking? i would have made it work. i am glad to be quit and still think i am forgetting something everytime i leave the house. i cant wait until everything is normal