Day 11
I’m on day 11 can’t quite believe it. The past 11 days have been a roller coaster of ups and downs. Last night I dreamt that I had a cigarette and I was devastated all I could think was oh no I have to start again. I feel like this will get easier with time didn’t feel like that Tuesday night was balling my eyes out. Like I said it’s a journey the hardest part is the emotions that come with quitting and not being able to escape them, at least that’s what I’ve found hardest but my best advice is to focus on 1 day at a time.
Sometimes I wonder will I be able to get out there and start enjoying life everything I’ve been doing for the last at least 12 years out of the 26 I’ve been a smoker I’ve always imagined it with a smoke in hand. Holidays do they have somewhere where I can smoke family events where can I sneak out so I can smoke kids events at school and the list goes on. I’m ashamed of it but I’m being honest it’s hard to imagine getting on with life without it the last few days were good but yesterday twice I had an automatic thought “i will just finish this and have a smoke” then thought nope you don’t smoke anymore. I am glad I’ve stopped but the battle to forget about it and move on is exhausting, looking forward to the day when I don’t think about it anymore and if I do it doesn’t bother me. I want to be happy healthy most of all full of energy and enjoy the next chapter of my life smoke free it’s just some days it feels impossible. Any thoughts.
The day will come! Hang in there and stay positive. We all thought the same thing, but you are learning and accepting that smoking was our reward, as well as a precursor to doing things. We made all kinds of excuses to smoke. Find other rewards and motivation to get moving. Smoking only hindered virtually everything. It was not a friend and it only felt good because it meant no cravings. Don't feed it and it has no more power. Those cravings mean that you are winning your freedom back!
You are doing great. Keep up the positive thinking. Negative only brings negative. Yes, we CAN quit smoking and we will find that we love it! After all, have you ever heard of anyone wishing that they smoked?