5 months in- Having a lot of difficulty
Hey everyone, haven’t been on in a while life has gotten pretty crazy. Hope everyone is doing well. So, I’m about 5 months in and every day it seems to be getting more difficult. Obviously there is extra stress right now. I’m potentially getting laid off, there is very little chance for peace with the kids being home etc. So I’m sure that all this stress isn’t helping. However, I find myself thinking about smoking probably 10-15 times an hour. It’s worse than the first few days right now. I feel like it’s only a matter of time before I start again. Very discouraging.
Ask yourself why you want that cigarette. It will not alleviate your stress but make you moodier. It will not help you put food on the table in the future. Things have a way of working out. One door closes, another opens. Things happen for a reason. being cooped up is hard on everyone, perhaps the kids most of all.
You have come so far to give up now. I don't think you want a cigarette. You want normalcy. There is really nothing normal about smoking. Just a drug we got adicted to and told ourselves we liked and chose to kill ourselves slowly. We were born and slapped to breathe air not smoke.
I am sure you will find the answer Trying. Lighting up is definitely not it!
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Keep strong you have done an amazing 5 months don't go back now anxiety and panic will pass. I live on my own and i have so many panic attacks but i am never going back to smoking. Your ahead stay ahead and keep going.
Happiness has give some very good advice xx
Thanks TryingTK for your Support.
Mate you can't smoke, your Kids Need you.
You want to see them Get married right.
Walk your Future Grandkids to the shop, not them push you in a wheel chair or wish you were not bed bound and sick.
In the future when this crazyness Pandemic settles you want to walk along the Beach, smell the salty air, laugh from the stomach and not gasp for breath,. Have you tried whittling wood?, seems to settle the mind. Maybe write a song to tobacco, and express your disdain and Anger and how its Betrayed you.
Just for today mate.
thanks for the responses everyone. It gets discouraging for me because I would have thought that by now I would barely be thinking about cigarettes. Happiness- I think that there is something to what you said. I think I may have created an association in my mind between smoking and normalcy... somehow I need to break that.
5 months is too big of a success to give up. Engage yourself otherwise TryingTK. And congratulations on 5 month mark!
It's time to practice NOPE (not one puff ever) very day. As said before, it will not help you to do otherwise, it will only give you extra problems. Give thanks for your kids, every day they grow up so fast.
Dear TryimgTK. I am now on day 54. I completely understand your frustration. Some of the symptoms come and go. My first month was symptom free. Then past 2 weeks has been an absolute roller coaster. I do feel my body getting better. Our worst enemy is our mind. Find something that you can do to “not” think about not smoking. For me it has been going into my treadmill. I am also going to start either yoga or meditation. Take care of yourself and keep in mind the big picture as to why you aren’t smoking. One day at a time to defeat the smoking demon.
I'm on my 3rd month of smoking-free and sometimes I dream about buying and smoking lots of cigarettes and it's weird. Keep up man! I too have the same issue about easily irritated especially when you're expecting someone but is not on the same page as what you are thinking. I sometimes, would love to go outside and walk in circles with a music on. We can do this!