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This last week has been horrible. Every turn I take I get so agitated. No one can do anything right around me. I fly off the chain at any given moment :/ I got put in my place Saturday though. I was confronted and asked what my problem was and if I couldn't work together I needed to take a day off and rest. He was right. :(
I'm struggling to get past these emotions. I'll be great all day and bam someone says something that hits me the wrong way and I lose it. I'm not backward in saying anything by the way either. I'm not a shy person at all. What do I do? I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings or be rude to anyone. I'm currently renovating a home for my son, so I spend a lot of time there working and I mean a lot of time, so much that I exhaust myself and can hardly walk into the house. But I still haven't smoked :D I don't want to smoke. I know just one will make me start all over. It's been 55 days and I know there will be lite at the end of the road, it's just getting there. I'm still smoke-free, disease free, so that's a plus! I'm 57 years old and tired. I'm glad I found this group. Thank you for listening.
Hi Lsisb1, congrats on 55 days. It's really a lot and keep on counting. I really understand your feelings, sometimes I''m unbearable to myself and I can't even imagine how others tolerate it. It's good that you are occupied a lot, and have so many things to do because there is less time to think of smoke. This is great site it really helped me a lot, so whenever you find yourself struggling do come here, share your feeling and life will get easier. And one more tip, breathe. I sometimes count up to 15 and breathe to calm and control myself. Kind regards.
Hi Lsisb1
i don't have a filter on my mouth either, so during this period I constantly stopped myself from opening my mouth so I could take a breath before I said anything ( i didn't think it was possible either but I also didn't think I could go without a cigarette)
I have what is called a dammit doll, the idea is you hold it and use it to hit a table, chair is something like that or the other thing is to go into a room pick up a pillow and scream into it, either of these things will help release your built up emotions.
Good Luck on your journey you can do this and congratulations on 55 days what a great achievement
Storm, thank you that's a good idea a dammit doll, I may need a few of them lol. This morning is a good morning, I don't feel on edge, had the radio blasting on the way to work and feeling pretty good.
I don't want a smoke Red-67. It's the mood swings I'm having a problem with. Yesterday I had an awesome day, All went well, then today, it was a so-so day. I just get anxiety so bad, I'm on edge, feel like I'm going to explode. Not even thinking about smoking.
For your question in regards to an aid, I was using Chantix, but I've pretty much weaned myself off it. I didn't want to replace one bad habit with another. I have taken a Chantix when the heat is on and I feel a blow out about to happen, so I've taken one to take the edge off. I know that's not the way to take them, but it's helped me. Yes, you are right my subconscious is being a biatch! I am trying to take self-control ;)
This is my first day without cigarettes. I understand how Lsisb1 may be feeling.I am so anxious and I don't want to go out cause I will want to go buy a pack.But, I have a lot anxiety anyway. I just want to go to sleep. Not engage with anyone because I feel like crying and I can't explain myself. A circle going around my thoughts. I am taking wellbutrin and vitamins. Keep up the fight Lsisb1. Tomorrow will be better ...FAITH