Day 9

Hi all :-)

Well currently I am on day 9 & to be honest I am 50/50 about the whole situation :-/ today has been a constant struggle of my brain arguing with... my brain lol!! I really don't believe I am having any physical withdrawals at all and only mental ones! I am still using patches but they are frustrating me cause they don't seem to stay fully stuck on for long & I feel like I have to keep changing them! So anyway today has been a weird one cause literally in the space of 2 mins apart my brain has been arguing with itself "9 days is good progress, keep it up ur doing great"... "yes but it's really hard and I'm getting frustrating with these feelings I'm having and finding it hard to concentrate on anything else except how much I want a smoke!"..."yes but think of how much better ur health will be & how much money u can save"..."Yeh but is it even worth it? I mean it's only been 9 days who cares!"..."don't smoke u idiot! Remember how crap u use to feel all the time!?"..."yes but maybe if i just buy a small packet I will try to only smoke a couple a day and make them last longer and if I don't smoke as much I don't feel so ill" etc etc etc bla bla bla

Sooo frustrating & hard :-(