Day thirteen - My slip up..
This isn't one of my daily posts, I will do that on Monday :)
But today is day 13, but yesterday.. I had the worst day at work, almost walked out crying of frustration a few times. Then I had a argument with my partner because we had both had a bad day, and I spat it, (I have a pretty bad temper, hence why I took the champix instead of cold turkey) I picked up a smoke, had about 4 puffs it was revolting! I threw it away, I then went and brushed my teeth and laid down because it made me feel so sick, I stood up and power chucked and it was the most painful spew I have ever done! so I defiantly don't think ill be taking up smoking again!
I thought I would share this because I was so disappointed in myself.. and thought I would have to start fresh, but slip ups are normal so I still see myself as 13 days smoke free, because the last thing I was right now is a smoke!
I think the worst is over :)
Hello butters, thanks for posting your story. That has to be the most difficult situation when you are stress, then you fight with your partner and then boom! I had exactly the same situation in my second week and I was so frustrated and wanted a cigarette so badly (but didn't have any), I found a butt in my butt bucket from the day before I quit, and I actually lit it. I took a few puffs and it was absolutely disgusting. I put it out, and did the same as you, brushed my teeth and washed my hands. I realised that no matter how stressed I was, to keep puffing away was not the answer.
So don't be too hard on yourself. It happens. I am at day 20 today (I think I am one week ahead of you) and I didn't consider my 'slip up' to mean I had to go back to Day 1.
Good luck, you can do this!
Hey Indigo, it was a difficult situation, but I now know I will have to find something else to do when I get stressed, after tasting how revolting it was I canot believe I smoked 25+ for 10 years, but I have no doubts ill be able to continue this journey, with all the support from family, my partner, work and the lovely people on this page, I got this :)
Hi Butters. Hang in there. You will discover that no matter how stressful a situation may appear, nicotine will not fix it. After wasting time & $'s you will find the situation persists. Smoking won't ever fix anything. There are better ways to face up to so called stress and very real problems.