more exposure but still 125 a ex smoker...

So well, its been a while I posted. I just realised that I am at 125 days with no cigarette after cold turkey..

and well, I am facing my demons, right now..

I went back to a country where I used to life.. and where smoking is much more socially accepted. All my friends here are smoking.. Its already shocking to realise that I did not have non smoker friends... besides it exposes me on a weekly base to cosy evenings in smoky rooms.. Temptation are huge.. but I resist.. but also being exposed much more to the previously smoking me...

One of my friend told me that she always though, my identity would be a smoker.. Ha... she sees it now.. I am not smoking.. still not.. And I can sit with my friends, still having a cosy evening and not smoking.. Actually really proud of that, although, obviously some of the advantages of non smoking are currently not there... my clothes are smelly... and I do passiv smoking.. But I do not have withdrawals, I do not crave the next smoke... I do not life my life around the cigarette anymore.. So well... To summarise it all, going back to this place made me even more sure about being a non smoker and I was able to face some of my demons...